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Losing Someone you love

25 January 2020 Loss is uninvited, but what about when you know you are bound to lose someone. How does one prepare oneself of everything for that mental state? I lost my granny today, she went through a lot of pain a lot of it, I cant imagine the pain and state of mind she must have gone through, seeing someone go through such a phase and being completely helpless about it is the worst feeling ever. Going back to all the days the good times, when she was savage, she was one of kind, she was strong, so strong she never gave up, I am sorry for the times I acted like so bad, this situation just makes me feel bad. Realisations we are all running on a stopwatch, every day just slips by. I dont know these last few days I just gave in, I did not go see her. I cant imagine the situation. Did she have things she wanted to do? I hope she is in a happy place somewhere away from all of this drama here, I hope she is happy, doing whatever she wanted to do. I couldn't see her in so much ...